Thank You 2019!

Thank you for my word of the year: Trust, a word that really came in handy when situations got foggy or hard or were simply unknown. I was able to let go of it all and put my trust in the greater good. It was a word that encouraged me to set aside anxiety, to set aside the Universal Remote and relax into uncertainty.

Thank you for these two human creatures:

Two great little kids who bring me nothing but love and lessons, silly fun and a squishy heart.

Thank you for my dream animal encounter:

This Raven left a group of people who were feeding him, all the way down the parking lot to our truck, to hang out with ME.

Whaaaaaat?!!!

I AM THE CHOSEN ONE!

Ha Ha Ha. I thought I’d died and gone to heaven!

THEN, his mate flew in from a tree somewhere, for a visit too!

They were both super bold, not aggressive just unbothered by our humanness. At times they was SO close to me I could have reached out and touched them. I didn’t though, out of respect for the moment. I thought the female was going to hop on my shoulder t one point, she just kept moving closer and closer! But I guess she was respecting the moment too.

We chit chatted in English and Raven for quite awhile, close to 30 mins before they fly into the trees for a snooze. Dream come true!

Thank you 2019 for the MIRENA IUD:

For all your hormone-y goodness that helps me live a normal life every month. Life changer. This seems funny to me to include on this list and hell, it may seem weird to you but when one has lived as I have lived, one is inclined to give thanks where thanks is due!

Thank you 2019 for March 18. The first day after Winter I was able to go for a walk without a jacket and be comfortable! Three more months to go ❤

Thanks for BOOKS. GLORIOUS BOOKS!

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And libraries too ❤

I read 133 books in 2019 beating my Reading Challenge by 8 books. Woot Woot! My goal for next year shall be…hmmmm….135 bookeroos!

Last but not least:

Thanks 2019 for all the lovely humans who pass by my little corner of the Universe by way of this place on the Interwebs.

That’s YOU!

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If you’ve ever read, liked, commented or met me in real life, you’ve had a positive impact on me and I thank you! I feel extremely lucky to be surrounded by so many intelligent, kind, fun and thoughtful people and I appreciate you SO MUCH.

Here’s to a kind and compassionate 2020.

May we be peaceful, happy, well, safe and free from suffering.

Love & Squishy Hugs.

2019’s Biggest Lesson

Remember when I went to Tanzania, started to write about it, then never finished?

Ha Ha Ha!

It’s coming. Truly.

Truly,truly, truly!

I brought something back from Tanzania that was far greater than stories and photos and I will actually share that with you today.

For real.

No kidding.

I’m not even lying.

I’m not really a goal oriented person. I’m happy to live my life, floating along this way and that. Travelling to Tanzania was the ONE thing in my life that I wanted to do.

I wanted to see the animals and the landscape. I wanted to bask in the beauty and the wonder of a place that was so different from my home. I imagined doing so would bring magic and meaning into my life and the experience was most magical. My time there was positive and special and full of meaning and emotion.

And then* poof* it was gone.

I lived every moment of that time. I was the most mindful muthafucka there ever was ! I squeezed out every last drop of experience I could. I let the whole thing sink into my very being and when I got home life was the same as it ever was.

One minute I was there, the next I was not. One minute I was surrounded by magic, the next it was like I’d never even gone. (Did I go? I mean I know I have the photos…)

After the post trip depression cleared and I got my working brain back I was struck by the greatest piece of wisdom I’ve gained this year.

I think I’d come back from a fun weekend with family. It might have been Miss. Sassafras’s dance recital, when my mum in law was in town and my family enjoyed dinner together and lots of love and laughs.

It might have been when I had my goodbye chat with Carolyn. When it became really clear that she was not going to outwit cancer, she was not going to live with it as a chronic condition. She was going to die. And she was going to die soon.

It might have even been a day when I was sitting on my porch in the sun having a chit chat with a wild crow.

I don’t know. But it came and it grabbed me and it stuck. I am ever grateful.

The Big Moments are fleeting. They do not last.

You might think they will because they GIGANTIC but they slip right through the hands. They may be grand and spectacular but in the scheme of all things, they are just small compared to this:

The seemingly small bits in the everyday that become HUGE. These are the things that add up, to make up a life. These are the things that matter. That count. These are the things that stick with you and glow far brighter than the big moments.

A smile from a loved one. Their smell, their laugh. Going out for coffee with a friend, your partner making you a cup of tea. Family dinners, neighbourhood walks. Birds chirping, the furnace roaring to life in the dead of Winter.

The small bits of the every day are the things that sustain us , without us even knowing and become what matter most in the end.

Go and do the big things

Then come home and make a good life, in all it’s perfectly ordinary, spectacular glory. Really focus on that.

Home, family and friends.

That’s where it’s at.

According to me 🙂

What’s been your greatest lesson of 2019? What did your Inner Wise Owl tell you? Won’t you share?

❤ Love & Squishy Hugs.

GoodReads Challenge:2019

Goodreads.com -for those who don’t know- is a site/community for readers. It’s kind of a simplified version of Facebook for books!

I use it to keep track of my reading and connect with my like minded friends. There are groups and contests and all sort of neat things to do on the site. My favourite activity is the Reading Challenge! Every year, readers from all over sign up to challenge themselves to READ MORE BOOKS!

Last year, because I was feeling so poorly, mentally, I “challenged” myself to read 12 books. I had just started to recover and while I was finally able to focus on a book long enough to finish, I didn’t want to overwhelm myself with a huge number. I figured I’d at least read my Book Club book, so 12 was a doable number!

Well. I outdid myself. I beat my challenge by 800%! I read 97 books! Woot Woot!

So now to challenge myself! The Hubs suggested I try and read 200 books… yeah, I think that’s crazy talk! I settled on 125 books in 2019. That seems doable AND challenging. So far I’ve got 4 books in, with 2 on the go. Not too shabby!

Are you on Goodreads? Are you taking part in the challenge? Wanna be Goodreads friends?

January Ramble

Happy Monday!

I love Mondays. This one in particular because it’s the start of the first full week in January and the first full week of 2019. ( Technically, Sunday is the first day of the week, but whatevs! )

I feel like I need a rest from all the resting I did over Yule. The Hubs and I became one with the couch and it was AWESOME! I’ve never been able to just be so this was HUGE for me. I finally learned how to rest. A great achievement.

Did you make any intentions? I have two:

  1. Stand Tall.
  2. Be Kind To Myself.

I’m pretty awesome everywhere else so that’s all I need.

Ha Ha Ha!

Ok. I’m pretty average. The truth is I view this time of year with mixed thoughts. On the one hand I like the idea of a fresh start. As humans, we love our clean slates, the chance to symbolically start anew. On the other hand, sometimes this time of year can feel like an assault.

YOU ARE FLAWED. YOU NEED TO FIX SOMETHING!

Meh. I’m just not about that. It encourages perfectionism and I’m not down with that. Perfectionism is anxiety in disguise. I have enough of that on my own. I don’t need to willfully add anymore.

So. Today I bring you this:

I’m going to celebrate learning how to rest and making it through my yearly dark days. How about you?

Happy New Year! 2019

We made it! Well, some of us. Its such a gift to live to see another day.

I honestly feel really uncomfortable saying that. I know for a fact a lot of people don’t think another day is a gift. Another day of suffering. Woohoo. *eye roll. Shelter, food and safety would be the real gift. Good health would be another.

I live with someone who thinks his life has gone on way too long and considers death, the real gift. The impulse to scold him or try and “inspire” him to change his mind is strong. I’ve since learned its actually pretty fucking hurtful, annoying and not the least bit helpful to do so. Not to mention totally disrespectful and reeking of my good privilege. Gah!

How’s this: If you’re happy and grateful to have another day, YAY! Let’s do this!

If having another day brings you nothing but sorrow and suffering. I’m sorry. May you be free from suffering. I love you.

You all know what camp I’m in! I am excited and grateful for another day, another week, another month , another year. Hopefully I get all those!

You see, I’ve got some plans 🙂 Some things I’m looking forward to.

  1. Its six months until Lune, my birthday month. One whole month devoted to Moi. An entire month of intentionally devoting my days to the joy of being me in this world. I highly recommend all people celebrate themselves this way. 1. its fun 2. the very act of doing so shows others that you know you are worthy of respect and love 3. you get to act the fool for a month and GET AWAY WITH IT 4. you totally deserve it! 5. It really fosters a loving relationship with yourself, over time. You might feel silly at first but it wont be long before you’re planning fucking trips to Europe for your 50th. 6. It spills out positively in other areas of your life.
  2. Planning my garden. I want to grown some more unusual -for me- things this year. And I cannot wait to eat the shit out of my asparagus patch ❤
  3. Being all creative. I’ve got an idea for some paintings and some bracelets and some scarves and some decorations and some rocks…
  4. Book Club! We’ve got some good books picked out and the ladies in the club are just the BEST. I’m excited to get to know them better. I’m excited for more fun and shenanigans!
  5. Mr. OV and Ms. Sassafras turn one and five. I’m excited to watch them as they grow and develop further.
  6. Walking and hiking in nicer weather. Our winter thus far has been lovely! If only people would CLEAR THE FUCKING ICE OFF THEIR SIDEWALKS! Ahem. Sorry. I’m looking forward to stress free walking and hikes in the woods.
  7. Our road trip to a little mountain town and a couple of zips on a coaster!
  8. Getting back on my Hubs motorcycle. It feels so good to zoom through the warm air with nothing between me and the sky but my clothing.
  9. All the little holidays and celebrations that are coming up.
  10. Family dinner, lunches and brunches.
  11. Meals out with friends.
  12. My big solo trip to one of my favourite places on Earth. Just me, my ocean and my trees. Back to my Sea Witch roots 🙂
  13. Opening up my big jar of good memories for the year.
  14. Becoming my own boss. I mean I am, already. I just don’t get paid for it. Ha ha. I’m talking about earning all the moola as my own boss.
  15. More bird song. Kinda like more cow bell.
  16. Every new recipe I’m going to try.
  17. Every new drink the coffee places bring out this year.
  18. More time with the people who love me.
  19. The funny memes that make me laugh, the inspirational quotes that shore me up and the poems that empower me.
  20. The moments of wonder in Nature that stop me and fill my heart and soul.
  21. Lazy days of reading.
  22. Hectic days of doing ALL THE THINGS!
  23. Camping. Hopefully. If we get a new hoopty or fix the old one.
  24. Becoming stronger, stable and more bendy.
  25. Those weird little moments in life that make you think and feel.

Geesh! I could go on and on 🙂 Now, its your turn! What are you looking forward to?