Buddhism & Afghanistan

This was my first read this month:

The Lovers- Romeo & Juliet in Afghanistan by Rod Nordland was capably written if not entirely frustrating. Not the writing or the book itself but the situation. This true story tells the tale of a young couple from two different ethnicities who fall in love and then have to fight their families and culture to be together. There are a lot of horrible things that happen to them and others and I find the book hard to read because of that, so be warned. It was eye opening to say the least.

Did you know there were once giant Buddha statues in Afghanistan? This book taught me that. I’m on a mission to learn more about that and I’m grateful for the new knowledge. I had no clue!

Speaking of Buddha:

Buddhist Bootcamp by Timber Hawkeye is my second read this month. A quick read full of personal insights, wisdom and lessons. I follow Timber on Facebook and this is just more detailed versions of his content there. Worth your time, especially if you want to take things in, in small doses.

So far, I’ve read 32 of the 125 books in my reading challenge. I seem to be reeeeeally slowing down but I’m still confident I can finish strong. I’ve got 10 month left to read the last 93. No problem!

Happy Day To You!

Rambles and Dying.

Happy Monday!

I am just catching up with everyone and everything! I was at a very intensive course in End-of- Life- Care, all last week. I enjoyed every minute of it but it was absolutely exhausting!

Every night I went home just brain dead. The topic is heavy as it is, and I was hyper focussed on taking it all in. Absorbing as much as I could. There was a huge variety of different people there and I wanted to get to know them all as best I could.

I made my friends straight away, and it’s like we’ve known each other for YEARS! How beautiful is that? There was a flip side to that too, which I find hilarious! There are always a few in every crowd! People are so queer. Myself included, of course.

The course was good and I’ve got so much to do but I’m happy and content and confident with the direction my life is heading. Plus I got to try something out!

Roomy!

We did an exercise with a cardboard coffin. It was awesome! How many people get to try out such a thing while they’re still alive?!

Here are our Monday Memes!

HA! @ Me. I try. OH how I try but I just can’t keep indoor plants alive.

*snort! It must be so annoying…

Right?! Ya don’t have to tell me twice ;P

Enjoy the heck out of your week! Love and Squishy Hugs.

Best Of: February

Happy March!

How was your February? Mine was pretty eventful! I love that. I also love that it’s a short month because our weather was especially atrocious! It’s all OK because a. we can’t do anything about THAT. b. Spring is nigh! It might come to us here in Edmonton in dribs and drabs but it will come. In twenty days we hit, my favourite equinox. Spring. Woot Woot!

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

So GOODBYE February. Thank you for the abundance!

Best TV series: Black Earth Rising  

This show was the BEST thing I watched this month. Starring the familiar John Goodman and the amazing Michaela Coel.

I don’t want to say too much about it except to say its worth the watch. Michaela Coel is FIERCE and real as Kate Ashby. I have a little bit of a girl crush on her 🙂 ❤ She’s such a great actress and the story is gut wrenching and satisfying in it’s truth and justice.

Best self care:

It didn’t last long but I LOVED seeing myself all grey. Sigh…it’s back to yellow again. I guess the toning shampoo I bought is not powerful enough. I have a fix up my sleeve though. If it works I’ll let you know!

Best: Conversation.

I talked to my mum in law for two hours on the phone, ha! She had just gone on her very first holiday. She’s 72 years old. It was heartening to hear her joy and excitement. The woman sounds like she’s finally living and she so deserves that!

Best Lunch Out: Valentine’s Day with my Hubs.

Best Concert: Also, the only concert this month:

Justin Timberlake!

It was such a cool vibe, we had great seats- JT was like RIGHT THERE- and it was good hearted joyful fun.

Best Visitors :

Best Lesson:

Don’t waste your energy on anything until you know it’s true worth.

Now part of this is just me, I’m highly sensitive and anxious. But I do have a say in my experience and I CAN choose where to focus my energy on. The job experience was a great reminder to chose carefully.

Best Opportunity:

The End of Life Care Doula course I finished on Friday! I’ve been in it all week and my intention ( and hope and wish ) is that this education is the start of something really special to me and my world.


Best Book : I didn’t read too many this month. I don’t know if it was the offerings I came across, my mood or what but my reading was really … meh. Having said that, I read 10 books and this was the best one out of the lot:

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A heartfelt read.

Alrighty then! I hope you have a delicious Sunday and an even more delicious March!

Simple Pleasures: Hot Buttered Toast.

There is NO way that butter is gonna melt.

I don’t often eat toast because my body burns through it like crazy BUT I sure do appreciate the eff out of it when I do.

Why? Well, there is nothing like hot buttered toast. The hot bread, in all it’s toasty goodness. The salted butter soaking in on every square inch of each slice. The crispy, creamy, crunchy textures cooperating together in each bite.

It is a thing of beauty and one of life’s simple pleasures.

Awwwwwe yeah!

How do you like your toast?

Monday Ramble, Bladder, Kids, Aging, Job.

Happy Monday!

I’m super excited to be off doing some learning this week! When I “master” the subject, I’ll tell you all about it. Until then…some memes!

Heh! You too?

I guess I should be grateful it’s all working! Have you seen how thick catheters are? Scaaaaary.!

Oh My Goddess, YES! The entire time they were in my care :p

Another advantage of aging! Ha, Beware us Oldielocks!

So, that job I was all nervous about?

A total waste of my good energy.

The whole thing was a letdown BUT in a good way because it showed me a thing or two and reinforced my own code of ethics.

A couple of red flags came up and then one doozy! I just can’t lie or evade as a regular course of action in a job working with the vulnerable. So the job is a nope for me!

Not a loss, in my opinion but a very good lesson in a lot of things!

I am ever grateful!

What are you grateful for this Monday?

Let It Settle.

I have a job interview today for a position in my field at a place of higher learning.

When I applied for the job I was most interested. The work is something I care deeply about, the hours are part time, reasonable and convenient. The wage is decent and the job is honourable.

Then I was called for an interview.

CUE THE FREAKING OUT!

Ha Ha Ha!

“I’m not educated enough. I’ve never worked with adults. Maybe I don’t want to travel ALL that way to work. I’m not even really an adult myself. I’m too quirky. I’m not professional enough. I only want the job because of ego. “

“THEY’LL SEE RIGHT THROUGH ME!”

Such is my anxious mind 🙂

I sat with the feelings as my mind did it’s thing. I let the thoughts come and go, I let the feelings sit like a rock in my throat and pound out of my chest. I decided I would not address anything until it all settled and I was calm.

Once that happened – it took ALL NIGHT LONG- I realized that I would regret not trying for the position, a position that in my non anxious state I was REALLY interested in, and called the person back to arrange for an interview and it all went well and fine. I didn’t embarrass myself. I sounded like a normal, capable human being. There was nothing to see through because I was my self.

But oh Good Goddess, what a process to get to that point.

All this, for a job interview! 🙂

Such is life with an over active nervous system!

I’m sharing this with you because I want to show the people who need to see this, how an anxious brain works AND how you can overcome that anxiety and be OK.

The thoughts came through me rapidly, one after the other after the other. I stopped to listen to them at first but then quickly realized a. they were just thoughts and they were neither true nor false b. there were too many of them to adequately address them all so it was better to let them float on by until they stopped.

And they did. And I was able to get clear and make a decision based in truth and wisdom.

All this, thanks to meditation. Meditating daily, gives me the pause in life to see through the anxious thoughts and feelings and allows my own wisdom and guidance to kick in. Without that pause, without that little gap in between the panic, my inner compass would not have had its say and I would have probably ignored the call and been angry with myself till the end of time, wondering about what could have been.

That would have been most unkind of me. I owe it to myself to try.

So, there is hope my friends! There is hope.

Sitting there after my conversation with the interviewer, I was struck by how calm I was. I wasn’t anxious or afraid at all, and yet the story I was telling myself was that I was scared. But upon examination, I was excited and curious. Once again, the anxiety lied like it always does.

That is lesson number two. Anxiety- and depression- lie.

As for me, I’ll probably have another freak out before the interview. And I’ll be fine, as I always am.

I’m just very grateful to be even chosen to interview for this position. It is a big deal! And an honour to be considered. No matter what happens, I feel like I’ve won already 🙂

What has your experience with anxiety been like? Can you share something that has helped you? What advice would you give to a nervous interviewee?

Heart Shaped Yums

Boston Pizza had an event on the 14th, for Valentine’s Day. Buy any small or medium pizza ( heart shaped or not ) and one dollar from each pizza would be donated to a local children’s charity.

I like pizza. I like excuses to go out for lunch in the middle of the week. I like celebrating love with my Hubby. I like money going to kids.

We ordered the Viva Italia. The description from their website:

Arrabbiata pizza sauce, pizza mozzarella, Genoa salami, chopped bacon, spicy Italian sausage, roasted red peppers, banana peppers, goat cheese, freshly grated Parmesan and a pesto drizzle.

What we got:

How did it taste?

Damn good! Even with that slightly dark crust.

I’m not a huge Boston Pizza fan. I find the food to be … pretty basic. There is nothing wrong with it, it’s just me. Having said that, I do have a favourite go to whenever the Hubs wants to eat there – Jambalaya Fettucine- and whenever I order it, it is consistently good. That is HUGE for me. So right away the place gets props for that.

This pizza brings my list from one to two. It was amazing! Lots of ingredients, spread evenly over the crust. The overall taste was salty-in a good way-briny, creamy, spicy, and savoury. Not one ingredient overpowered the other. Each one was distinct and everything worked so well together. I even liked the pesto drizzle. I HATE pesto but it was a STAR on this pie. I would order this again. Hell, I’m craving more now!

We didnt eat the whole pie-I wanted to!- because we were saving room for dessert! One dollar from each sale of their Triple Chocolate Mousse Cake goes to a local children’s charity, too. From their site:

Dark chocolate sponge cake layered with milk chocolate and white chocolate mousse, topped with whipped cream and a chocolate coin.


The verdict. Good if not plain. There was nothing wrong with it and nothing overly spectacular either. That didn’t stop me from stuffing my face 🙂

Our service was fast, friendly and efficient. The food was good. It was a great way to spend the lunch hour, that’s for sure.

And because it was Valentine’s Day, I bring you this:

One neatly folded napkin -my husband. And one crumpled messy one-mine.

This makes me laugh because a. my Hubs pointed it out to me, which means he’s gathering insight which is unusual for him. b. this is a direct view inside each of our brains-him neat and organized, me- messy and all over the place c. despite this huge difference and despite some pretty major troubles in our 20 odd year marriage, we’re still here together, living and working and growing through it all ❤