Best of January-2020

I wanted to call this The Hit List, as a companion to The Shit List because it rhymes buuuut I don’t know…Hit List makes me think of other things and I try to keep my brain out of those bad neighbourhoods, ha ha!

I was doing this last year but I fell out of the practice. Here I am again, ever optimistic.

Best of January:

Well number one, this adorable piece of my DNA:

Olivia Angel-Lael. (!!) She was 6lbs 14oz and hardly gave her Mum any trouble at all. Of course I saw her hours after she was born- I had her brother for safe keeping and we all trooped in for a visit right away – and I got to snuggle her again over the weekend. It’s hard to get a sense of who a newborn is but thus far she is very chill and doesn’t seem to mind her tornado two year old brother, as he bounces around all over her. OV loves her and often pauses his very important toddler business to stop and give her pets on the hands, tickles on the tummy and kisses on the head.

I’ve read 9 books this month, am at 7% of my reading goal, and this was the best one out of the bunch:

Olive, Again by Elizabeth Strout. Number two in a series…I think…there is one before this one -Olive Kitteridge- its up to the author if there will be a third- ANYWAY, it’s a great story about one woman seem from many different angles along with a few other intertwining storylines and its just so damn human. A good read that inspired me to go easy on myself and others.

Best catalyst: The FLU.

I know, crazy right?! The flu brought with it a gift. It forced me to listen to my body and take time to just be. To do nothing. I didn’t want to be a miserable lump of ick the whole time and in order to do that, I just had to accept that I was ill, unable to do much and just sit with what I had. Be that books, tv, YouTube, or my sick ass self. It allowed me to do these things without guilt or shame and even though I was NOT having a time, it wasn’t all that awful. I was grateful for what I did have! I enjoyed doing nothing. I enjoyed the rest. I enjoyed the simplicity of it all. Not only that, it peaked my curiosity and I went on to learn everything I could about the subject and came away with a real appreciation for… well…everything! Finally, and maybe most importantly I didn’t experience any of that 900 days of January nonsense. The month flew by for me, woot woot!

Best purchase:

I drank a lot of tea this month – It was National Tea Drinking Month too!- and when my cheap kettle crapped out , I simply went back to the way I’d done it for 25 years before-boiled water on the stove in a pot- but I missed my kettle, even if it was crappy so when London Drugs had a sale, I treated myself to this. It’s glass. Yay! No more plastic leaching, ha ha. And isn’t that light so pretty?! I feel so indulgent, lol I’m still blowing my nose with toilet paper though. What is wrong with me?!

Best Game: June’s Journey

June’s Journey is a hidden objects game that takes you through stories as you move through each level or scene. It’s a fun little time waster that doesn’t leave you feeling like you’ve wasted time! Plus, it’s good for your brain and it’s full of stupid tropes you can laugh at.

Best Ted Talk:

SO GOOD!

How was YOUR January? What would be on your Best Of list?

Sh*T List- January

I used to think that in order to be a sunshiny, sugar sweet kind of person, I had to avoid all things that were negative. Life quickly taught me that was an impossible task! And so I found myself obsessively hiding the ugly stuff in life. Or glossing it up with lies and excusing it with pseudo science and platitudes.

For the LONGEST time I thought there was something wrong with me!

Why aren’t any of these positive thoughts working on any of my problems!?!?!?!?!?

Then as I delved deeper in my practice and I learned that all humans suffer. That suffering is a fact of life and a shared experience for all 7 billion of us, I felt great relief but I was still stuck with all these negative feelings. What the hell do I do with them?!

Well, the first thing I do is feel them.

And then…I put them on my Shit List!

There is something therapeutic about acknowledging the negative and then letting it go.

Sometimes, it comes back. That’s fine. Onto the list again. A shit list is actually a great tool to have because it:

Gets the negativity out of your head.

Helps you uncover patterns and serves as a roadmap to your challenges.

Validates your feelings OR shows you when you’re being a dumbass. ( The power of print! )

You can put anything you want on your list. People, experiences, objects, forces of nature. Whatevs. It’s all appropriate. We’re just making note of things that caused us suffering so we can acknowledge the negative and then… let it go.

With all that in mind I bring you: January’s Shit List

1. Alberta’s current government.

2. The creeps who prowl my neighbourhood, destroying and stealing property they go.

3. Mooshum, the worst watch dog in the history of watch dogs.

When said Creep walked by my fence that guy^didnt even look up from his sniffing.

4. The Flu, which not only got me but gave my 2 year old grandson a febrile seizure and tossed my 5 year old granddaughter into the hospital with pneumonia.

5. Carl’s Jr. who ignored us in the drive thru,leaving us to sit there for 5 minutes before we drove away. I was really craving a burger too. Grrr!

6. Wimpy cough candies. Why even bother making your product? Ricola, I’m looking at you.

7. Myself, for being a mindless, careless knitter and a clueless human. This is a whole post in itself.

8. Animal “rescues” who operate more like pet stores.

9. People who rain on your parade. Yes, Janice I know getting your finger pierced is probably am exercise in snagged fingers but LET ME HAVE MY THING! And Oh, I’m sure owning and operating my own business would be a lot of work, let me find that out for MYSELF instead of gracing me with your “expert” advice. Do you think the thought never occurred to me? What exactly is your point and what are you trying to prove?! It seems like any time I have an idea, share something cool on social media or make note of something unusual, there is always someone there to take a giant steamer on it. Get.out.of.here.with.your.negativity!

10. Advertising in Alberta: First, the phone message from The Brick – a large furniture store- who regularly calls to advertise their shit over the phone. This time, instead of the usual ” I’m so and so from The Brick!” in used car salesman voice the message was as such- ” Hi! How are you?!” long pause…as if the person were waiting for your response even though it’s most obviously a recorded message” Ha ha, just joking this is so and so from The Brick” Go Fuck Yourself with that stupid shit!

Then there’s this gem:

WHY? WHHHHHHY?!

I don’t live anywhere close to this neighbourhood! WHy are they sending me this and what does that photo have to do with teeth?! I hate capitalism.

11. My left ovary which feels like it has a cyst that’s trying to burst.

12. Unripe sapodilla’s that pretend to be ripe according to all sources but when you cut into said fruit of lies and take a big old bite out of a fruit that cost you 4 whole dollars, it so astringent that you have to spit it out into the sink and rinse your mouth out over and over again to repair the damage.

There, that should do it. One rant for every month of the year, ha. I feel better already. How about you? What’s on your SHit List this January?

Birthday List

Somebody, somewhere recently inspired me to start a Birthday List.

Every year this person makes a list of all the cool things she wants to do before her next birthday. She bases how many items to place on her list by how old she is and gets to work!

I thought it’d be fun to do something similar but since I’m impatient and don’t want to wait for my birthday, aaaaand since my birth month is six months from now I thought I’d do this:

Split the difference and create and execute half a list now and half a list in Lune! Here’s my list:

  1. Make homemade boba pearls and Use my homemade boba pearls in Brown Sugar Boba Tea.
  2. Make Salt Water Taffy.
  3. Read Forest Gump.
  4. Read Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Café.
  5. Make pulled sugar candies.
  6. Make Jamie Oliver’s Jerk Ham
  7. Make soup dumplings.
  8. Make my own cheese.
  9. Make Vietnamese Egg Coffee
  10. Go for a winter hike.
  11. Treat a friend to a fancy meal.
  12. Create six pieces of art-one a month.
  13. Get Inka Trail tattoo.
  14. Watch a TEDX talk video every week.
  15. Knit 3 scarves for Chase The Chill YEG
  16. Make Honey Crullers.
  17. Celebrate something silly every month.
  18. Make yogurt out of coconut milk.
  19. Make cake doughnuts.
  20. Take Hubs out for breakfast.
  21. Throw/donate something away every day for a month.
  22. Spend one day living without time.
  23. Make fried eggs, Spanish style.

Hmmmm, this list just looks like an excuse to try a lot of food.

Ha. But there’s other stuff on there too! Knitting for charity…a thought experiment, acting on my generous thoughts instead of just thinking about them…it’s not all food!😆

Ok. Whatever. I like to eat!

Heehee.

I’ll revisit this again in Lune and we’ll see how I’ve done! Won’t you join me for your Birthday too? 😀

The Flu

Would you believe I’m still sick?

I know! It’s been almost 4 weeks. Apparently that’s normal. And here I was thinking I’d be healed in a week,Haha Haha!

This illness has been hilarious. I’ve lost hearing on one side, I developed PINKEYE ( what am I, a five year old?) and daily I’m being hit with sore throat attacks that come and go randomly with no rhyme or reason. I keep thinking -Ok what new symptom am I going to experience next?!

I think the worst thing is the fatigue and disinterest in anything that requires energy. I feel like one giant puddle of ooze. The plus side of this is that I feel zero guilt for sitting around these past 4 weeks. 😁 AND it sure makes January FLY by!

I’m a healthy human with no underlying issues. I have near perfect immunity to the various flu viruses out there. The last time I was ill was 9 years ago. I take precautions against illness daily and while I’m not young, I’m not all that old either.

Which brings me to the whole point of this post ( really, I’m not just whining):

This virus is nasty in me, a healthy person, it must be hell on the elderly and folks who have underlying health issues. I see why health care professionals are so keen on the flu shot. I just want to wrap up the vulnerable and keep them safe so they don’t get sick,gah.

Take care of yourselves, Peeps. And take care of your neighbors too. 💜

New Year, New Ramble

More like New Year, New Flu!

I’m actually sick! With the Flu of all things!

I was fine -and contagious- when I went out for lunch and a movie- Little Women- with a friend on Friday. ( Great movie!)

I was fine on Saturday morning while I started my new art project.

And then suddenly I was not!

Uh oh!

The good news is my magic potion is helping and while I’m sick and incapacitated it’s not as horrible as it could be. Aside from the fever, coughing and a very sore throat, the ick has been most manageable. I’m even enjoying the forced rest and I’ve been feeling nothing but gratitude that my symptoms are on the milder side.

It seems to be settling into my chest now which is preferable to my head so it’s ALL GOOD! I’d much rather cough than have a headache even if coughing is the reason I’m awake at this hour.

I did get to watch Bake Off though, and here I am rambling away so it’s not wasted time!

How was your New Year? Did you celebrate?

We had the Little Miss over and that was sure fun. We played games and lit sparklers and everyone was in bed before midnight, ha!

BUT we went for a New Year’s hike the next day-if you follow me on Instagram you’d know this, she says passive aggressively- and I was most proud of myself because I walked on the ice bravely and it was worth the initial fear and anxiety to get out there and start the year off in Nature.

Anyway:

Ha!

Here, this is a nicer one:

And now I’m going to make coffee and play games until the fatigue that’s settling in forces me back to bed! Good Morning and Happy Monday!

New Year. Same Awesome You.

Happy New Year!

I love the fresh start of a new year but I detest all that “New Year, New You” bullshit.

It feels violent towards the self.

It feels like – YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH! FIX YOURSELF!- and I’ve gotta tell you, I’ve already wasted TOO MANY of my good years on that scam. I’m not doing it anymore. I just can’t.

How can I claim to love who I am and then try and change who I am?

It just doesn’t make sense to me.

I am a perfect being of…light…energy…spirit…whatever you want to call it, and YOU ARE TOO!

Yes, I’m yelling. I feel strongly about this one.

It just seems like such a waste of precious time. We only get so long to live and I don’t want to waste it bullying myself with a hate campaign disguised as self improvement.

So instead I use this time of year to refocus and refresh.

I choose a word that I use as a guidepost throughout the year and my 2020 word is:

FLOW

Flow came to me over the Summer. I was enjoying life, flitting from one thing to another without an anxious thought or judgement. Simply living in the moment, mindful of the moment and nothing else. I had been in flow for about a month before realizing what it was and because it felt so good, I thought it’d make a good word for the next year.

So here I am, in flow.

This word serves as a reminder to let things go. To focus on what is at hand. To let the thoughts come and go as they will. To take each second as it comes with full acceptance. To step into the flow of life with gratitude for the experience and see where it takes me.

I’m excited for this one! It feels like freedom.

Do you choose a word to start off your year? Care to care?!

How about resolutions? I found a really great take on resolutions here for those of you who like to make them.

May your 2020 be everything you wish for ❤

Thank You 2019!

Thank you for my word of the year: Trust, a word that really came in handy when situations got foggy or hard or were simply unknown. I was able to let go of it all and put my trust in the greater good. It was a word that encouraged me to set aside anxiety, to set aside the Universal Remote and relax into uncertainty.

Thank you for these two human creatures:

Two great little kids who bring me nothing but love and lessons, silly fun and a squishy heart.

Thank you for my dream animal encounter:

This Raven left a group of people who were feeding him, all the way down the parking lot to our truck, to hang out with ME.

Whaaaaaat?!!!

I AM THE CHOSEN ONE!

Ha Ha Ha. I thought I’d died and gone to heaven!

THEN, his mate flew in from a tree somewhere, for a visit too!

They were both super bold, not aggressive just unbothered by our humanness. At times they was SO close to me I could have reached out and touched them. I didn’t though, out of respect for the moment. I thought the female was going to hop on my shoulder t one point, she just kept moving closer and closer! But I guess she was respecting the moment too.

We chit chatted in English and Raven for quite awhile, close to 30 mins before they fly into the trees for a snooze. Dream come true!

Thank you 2019 for the MIRENA IUD:

For all your hormone-y goodness that helps me live a normal life every month. Life changer. This seems funny to me to include on this list and hell, it may seem weird to you but when one has lived as I have lived, one is inclined to give thanks where thanks is due!

Thank you 2019 for March 18. The first day after Winter I was able to go for a walk without a jacket and be comfortable! Three more months to go ❤

Thanks for BOOKS. GLORIOUS BOOKS!

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And libraries too ❤

I read 133 books in 2019 beating my Reading Challenge by 8 books. Woot Woot! My goal for next year shall be…hmmmm….135 bookeroos!

Last but not least:

Thanks 2019 for all the lovely humans who pass by my little corner of the Universe by way of this place on the Interwebs.

That’s YOU!

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If you’ve ever read, liked, commented or met me in real life, you’ve had a positive impact on me and I thank you! I feel extremely lucky to be surrounded by so many intelligent, kind, fun and thoughtful people and I appreciate you SO MUCH.

Here’s to a kind and compassionate 2020.

May we be peaceful, happy, well, safe and free from suffering.

Love & Squishy Hugs.