Birthday List

Somebody, somewhere recently inspired me to start a Birthday List.

Every year this person makes a list of all the cool things she wants to do before her next birthday. She bases how many items to place on her list by how old she is and gets to work!

I thought it’d be fun to do something similar but since I’m impatient and don’t want to wait for my birthday, aaaaand since my birth month is six months from now I thought I’d do this:

Split the difference and create and execute half a list now and half a list in Lune! Here’s my list:

  1. Make homemade boba pearls and Use my homemade boba pearls in Brown Sugar Boba Tea.
  2. Make Salt Water Taffy.
  3. Read Forest Gump.
  4. Read Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Café.
  5. Make pulled sugar candies.
  6. Make Jamie Oliver’s Jerk Ham
  7. Make soup dumplings.
  8. Make my own cheese.
  9. Make Vietnamese Egg Coffee
  10. Go for a winter hike.
  11. Treat a friend to a fancy meal.
  12. Create six pieces of art-one a month.
  13. Get Inka Trail tattoo.
  14. Watch a TEDX talk video every week.
  15. Knit 3 scarves for Chase The Chill YEG
  16. Make Honey Crullers.
  17. Celebrate something silly every month.
  18. Make yogurt out of coconut milk.
  19. Make cake doughnuts.
  20. Take Hubs out for breakfast.
  21. Throw/donate something away every day for a month.
  22. Spend one day living without time.
  23. Make fried eggs, Spanish style.

Hmmmm, this list just looks like an excuse to try a lot of food.

Ha. But there’s other stuff on there too! Knitting for charity…a thought experiment, acting on my generous thoughts instead of just thinking about them…it’s not all food!😆

Ok. Whatever. I like to eat!

Heehee.

I’ll revisit this again in Lune and we’ll see how I’ve done! Won’t you join me for your Birthday too? 😀

The Flu

Would you believe I’m still sick?

I know! It’s been almost 4 weeks. Apparently that’s normal. And here I was thinking I’d be healed in a week,Haha Haha!

This illness has been hilarious. I’ve lost hearing on one side, I developed PINKEYE ( what am I, a five year old?) and daily I’m being hit with sore throat attacks that come and go randomly with no rhyme or reason. I keep thinking -Ok what new symptom am I going to experience next?!

I think the worst thing is the fatigue and disinterest in anything that requires energy. I feel like one giant puddle of ooze. The plus side of this is that I feel zero guilt for sitting around these past 4 weeks. 😁 AND it sure makes January FLY by!

I’m a healthy human with no underlying issues. I have near perfect immunity to the various flu viruses out there. The last time I was ill was 9 years ago. I take precautions against illness daily and while I’m not young, I’m not all that old either.

Which brings me to the whole point of this post ( really, I’m not just whining):

This virus is nasty in me, a healthy person, it must be hell on the elderly and folks who have underlying health issues. I see why health care professionals are so keen on the flu shot. I just want to wrap up the vulnerable and keep them safe so they don’t get sick,gah.

Take care of yourselves, Peeps. And take care of your neighbors too. 💜

New Year, New Ramble

More like New Year, New Flu!

I’m actually sick! With the Flu of all things!

I was fine -and contagious- when I went out for lunch and a movie- Little Women- with a friend on Friday. ( Great movie!)

I was fine on Saturday morning while I started my new art project.

And then suddenly I was not!

Uh oh!

The good news is my magic potion is helping and while I’m sick and incapacitated it’s not as horrible as it could be. Aside from the fever, coughing and a very sore throat, the ick has been most manageable. I’m even enjoying the forced rest and I’ve been feeling nothing but gratitude that my symptoms are on the milder side.

It seems to be settling into my chest now which is preferable to my head so it’s ALL GOOD! I’d much rather cough than have a headache even if coughing is the reason I’m awake at this hour.

I did get to watch Bake Off though, and here I am rambling away so it’s not wasted time!

How was your New Year? Did you celebrate?

We had the Little Miss over and that was sure fun. We played games and lit sparklers and everyone was in bed before midnight, ha!

BUT we went for a New Year’s hike the next day-if you follow me on Instagram you’d know this, she says passive aggressively- and I was most proud of myself because I walked on the ice bravely and it was worth the initial fear and anxiety to get out there and start the year off in Nature.

Anyway:

Ha!

Here, this is a nicer one:

And now I’m going to make coffee and play games until the fatigue that’s settling in forces me back to bed! Good Morning and Happy Monday!

New Year. Same Awesome You.

Happy New Year!

I love the fresh start of a new year but I detest all that “New Year, New You” bullshit.

It feels violent towards the self.

It feels like – YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH! FIX YOURSELF!- and I’ve gotta tell you, I’ve already wasted TOO MANY of my good years on that scam. I’m not doing it anymore. I just can’t.

How can I claim to love who I am and then try and change who I am?

It just doesn’t make sense to me.

I am a perfect being of…light…energy…spirit…whatever you want to call it, and YOU ARE TOO!

Yes, I’m yelling. I feel strongly about this one.

It just seems like such a waste of precious time. We only get so long to live and I don’t want to waste it bullying myself with a hate campaign disguised as self improvement.

So instead I use this time of year to refocus and refresh.

I choose a word that I use as a guidepost throughout the year and my 2020 word is:

FLOW

Flow came to me over the Summer. I was enjoying life, flitting from one thing to another without an anxious thought or judgement. Simply living in the moment, mindful of the moment and nothing else. I had been in flow for about a month before realizing what it was and because it felt so good, I thought it’d make a good word for the next year.

So here I am, in flow.

This word serves as a reminder to let things go. To focus on what is at hand. To let the thoughts come and go as they will. To take each second as it comes with full acceptance. To step into the flow of life with gratitude for the experience and see where it takes me.

I’m excited for this one! It feels like freedom.

Do you choose a word to start off your year? Care to care?!

How about resolutions? I found a really great take on resolutions here for those of you who like to make them.

May your 2020 be everything you wish for ❤

Thank You 2019!

Thank you for my word of the year: Trust, a word that really came in handy when situations got foggy or hard or were simply unknown. I was able to let go of it all and put my trust in the greater good. It was a word that encouraged me to set aside anxiety, to set aside the Universal Remote and relax into uncertainty.

Thank you for these two human creatures:

Two great little kids who bring me nothing but love and lessons, silly fun and a squishy heart.

Thank you for my dream animal encounter:

This Raven left a group of people who were feeding him, all the way down the parking lot to our truck, to hang out with ME.

Whaaaaaat?!!!

I AM THE CHOSEN ONE!

Ha Ha Ha. I thought I’d died and gone to heaven!

THEN, his mate flew in from a tree somewhere, for a visit too!

They were both super bold, not aggressive just unbothered by our humanness. At times they was SO close to me I could have reached out and touched them. I didn’t though, out of respect for the moment. I thought the female was going to hop on my shoulder t one point, she just kept moving closer and closer! But I guess she was respecting the moment too.

We chit chatted in English and Raven for quite awhile, close to 30 mins before they fly into the trees for a snooze. Dream come true!

Thank you 2019 for the MIRENA IUD:

For all your hormone-y goodness that helps me live a normal life every month. Life changer. This seems funny to me to include on this list and hell, it may seem weird to you but when one has lived as I have lived, one is inclined to give thanks where thanks is due!

Thank you 2019 for March 18. The first day after Winter I was able to go for a walk without a jacket and be comfortable! Three more months to go ❤

Thanks for BOOKS. GLORIOUS BOOKS!

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And libraries too ❤

I read 133 books in 2019 beating my Reading Challenge by 8 books. Woot Woot! My goal for next year shall be…hmmmm….135 bookeroos!

Last but not least:

Thanks 2019 for all the lovely humans who pass by my little corner of the Universe by way of this place on the Interwebs.

That’s YOU!

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If you’ve ever read, liked, commented or met me in real life, you’ve had a positive impact on me and I thank you! I feel extremely lucky to be surrounded by so many intelligent, kind, fun and thoughtful people and I appreciate you SO MUCH.

Here’s to a kind and compassionate 2020.

May we be peaceful, happy, well, safe and free from suffering.

Love & Squishy Hugs.

2019’s Biggest Lesson

Remember when I went to Tanzania, started to write about it, then never finished?

Ha Ha Ha!

It’s coming. Truly.

Truly,truly, truly!

I brought something back from Tanzania that was far greater than stories and photos and I will actually share that with you today.

For real.

No kidding.

I’m not even lying.

I’m not really a goal oriented person. I’m happy to live my life, floating along this way and that. Travelling to Tanzania was the ONE thing in my life that I wanted to do.

I wanted to see the animals and the landscape. I wanted to bask in the beauty and the wonder of a place that was so different from my home. I imagined doing so would bring magic and meaning into my life and the experience was most magical. My time there was positive and special and full of meaning and emotion.

And then* poof* it was gone.

I lived every moment of that time. I was the most mindful muthafucka there ever was ! I squeezed out every last drop of experience I could. I let the whole thing sink into my very being and when I got home life was the same as it ever was.

One minute I was there, the next I was not. One minute I was surrounded by magic, the next it was like I’d never even gone. (Did I go? I mean I know I have the photos…)

After the post trip depression cleared and I got my working brain back I was struck by the greatest piece of wisdom I’ve gained this year.

I think I’d come back from a fun weekend with family. It might have been Miss. Sassafras’s dance recital, when my mum in law was in town and my family enjoyed dinner together and lots of love and laughs.

It might have been when I had my goodbye chat with Carolyn. When it became really clear that she was not going to outwit cancer, she was not going to live with it as a chronic condition. She was going to die. And she was going to die soon.

It might have even been a day when I was sitting on my porch in the sun having a chit chat with a wild crow.

I don’t know. But it came and it grabbed me and it stuck. I am ever grateful.

The Big Moments are fleeting. They do not last.

You might think they will because they GIGANTIC but they slip right through the hands. They may be grand and spectacular but in the scheme of all things, they are just small compared to this:

The seemingly small bits in the everyday that become HUGE. These are the things that add up, to make up a life. These are the things that matter. That count. These are the things that stick with you and glow far brighter than the big moments.

A smile from a loved one. Their smell, their laugh. Going out for coffee with a friend, your partner making you a cup of tea. Family dinners, neighbourhood walks. Birds chirping, the furnace roaring to life in the dead of Winter.

The small bits of the every day are the things that sustain us , without us even knowing and become what matter most in the end.

Go and do the big things

Then come home and make a good life, in all it’s perfectly ordinary, spectacular glory. Really focus on that.

Home, family and friends.

That’s where it’s at.

According to me 🙂

What’s been your greatest lesson of 2019? What did your Inner Wise Owl tell you? Won’t you share?

❤ Love & Squishy Hugs.

Gingerbread Everything.

Breakfast time

Quinoa flakes? Check!

Pomegranate? Check!

Almonds? Check!

Delicious Gingerbread Truffle from Purdy’s? CHECK!!

I’m obsessed with all things Gingerbread this holiday season and life is damn tasty.

You need yourself some tasty too! Luckily I’ve done extensive research and have come up with three offerings you may like!

As I mentioned Purdy’s makes a Gingerbread Truffle:

Aren’t they darling!? Look at those wee gingerbreads…SQUEEE! The flavour is complex and they’ve got little crispy bits all throughout the soft and luscious truffle centre. They come in milk chocolate and dark -if you choose the dark, you’re also getting anti oxidants!) and are totally worth the $12.00 you’ll pay for them.

I also bought their eggnog truffles…meh. Actually…ick! I didn’t read the fine print when I ordered them because I thought- Oh eggnog, they’ll taste like that!- Yeah….more like rum and eggnog. I hate rum! Oh well, live and learn.

The Hubs ordered Sweet Georgia Browns and oh my GODDESS, those are a thing of joy and beauty. I made him take them to work with him because I didn’t trust myself not eat all his treats, ha!

The first gingerbread yum I ate this season was a treat most unusual:

Handmade by Sweet Chaos, this spiced kettle corn with icing drizzle can be found at Save On Foods. The frosting drizzle makes this! The popcorn is well made, soft and lightly spiced and then you get one with a bit of that drizzle and OH MY. The contrast between wet and dry is really fun to eat.

Next on our list is Ritter Sport Spiced Biscuit:

Mmmmm. It doesn’t say Gingerbread but this is Gingerbread. The chocolate coating is gingerbread spiced, the cookie is like a spiced Digestive biscuit and the mousse is gingerbready too. I can’t remember what I paid for this-I do remember it was higher than I normally would- but in the end, totally worth it. The flavour is a little bit fancier than the usual gingerbread we’re used to. It’d be worth checking out just for that.

What is your favourite flavour this season?