COVID 19 Anxiety.

How are you holding out? Are you feeling anxious?

I thought I was doing pretty good until I noticed I was sniping at my husband and growing more scattered than normal. A stranger on an article about anxiety mentioned in the comments that she felt like her head was going to “pop off” and my light switch flipped on. That’s how I was feeling too!

The great thing about this was that as soon as I recognized it in myself, I felt better! I’m doing pretty good now. Still anxious but not unaware and able to take action to care for myself, as needed. Here are some things that helped me. I hope, if you are feeling anxious too that they may help you โค

1. Be open and honest about your feelings with your friends and loved ones.

My Hubs was able to cultivate so much more patience and understanding for me once he learned why I was suddenly being such a bitch to him. My friends flooded me with love and support too, which had a very real bolstering effect! Not only that, my openness has helped others open up about their own mental health and that has further built and strengthened my community AND given me a sense of pride and purpose, which in turn allows me to focus on something other than DOOM!

2. Realize that feeling anxiety now is completely normal!

Anxiety is a normal response to an abnormal situation. These are SCARY times! You are not over reacting if you feel afraid. You are a human being having a biological response to real danger. Our bodies are designed to feel this way, during times like this. It all feels awful by design. You’re doing nothing wrong.

3. Do something physical if you can to move that anxious energy out of your body.

If you already have an exercise routine, keep it up. Adapt it if you need to, but be sure to keep at it. If you don’t, try going for a walk. (If you can. Away from other people, obviously) I know I personally always feels better after a walk.There is lots of science that confirms the great benefits of this form of exercise. If I cant get outside, I walk in my house. Seriously. That’s how much I believe in walks for good health. There are a ton of other amazing things you can do to work that anxiety out. Yoga, dance, weight lifting -use cans if you don’t have weights- clean your house! Take up a craft..do something physical. It doesn’t matter what, as long as you like doing it. Joyful movement is an excellent balm.

4. Find humour in things. Seek it out!

Oh the memes. The memes! What a time to be alive! The memes are amazing! People are so clever, so artistic and hilariously funny. I have spent more time laughing than I have worrying, that’s for damn sure. Find your own favourite source for humour. Laugh. Just laugh. Seek out the absurd. There is science to back up how important this is too. Have yourself a good giggle!

5. Seek out the good.

These ARE scary times, and some people are acting like jerks but there are way more decent humans than not. Find those people! Focus on them. Be that person yourself! Here, I’ll get you started. When I popped up to the store to grab some groceries every single human was acting decent. Yes, the fear was palpable but no one was freaking out and people were helping one another! ( I helped a lady who couldn’t read English.) I saw countless people reaching up on the top shelves for those who couldn’t and people were not clearing out the food. They were careful to leave stuff for others. I came home feeling happy, yes happy! It’s nice to know we haven’t lost our kindness.

I belong to three groups on Facebook devoted to helping others during this time. People are going out their way to assist those in need. My own friends have offered up their libraries to me! Delivered straight to my door step! โค

Countless artists online are making art for others-free! I’ve seen a Jann Arden show and Keith Urban too. Other organizations are opening up online content for free as well. Goodness still exists. Look for it.

Our world is going to be changed by this massive event. YOU are going to be changed as well. May you find peace, comfort and a wee bit of joy where you can. Love and squishy hugs to all of you!

Everyone Should Keep A List (#7)

of all the little things they love!

1. My good health.

2. Shamrock Shakes and Surprise Fries from the Hubs.

3. This Boy and his silly sense of style:

4. The ability to deadlift. Get out of here sciatica!

5. Mangos! Especially scraping the flesh off the pit with my teeth!

6. This old cat.

7. My 13 year old Kenmore washing machine that is-touch wood-still going strong. Even after sitting outside, with water in it for 3 years.

8. This baby:

9. My peace, calm, wisdom and clarity:

10. Leftovers the next day!

How about you? Tell me all about the little things you love!

A-Z Challenge Theme 2020

Reveal day was YESTERDAY but I was busy freaking out about our current situation so I’m a day late!

ANYhoo, I’m participating in the A-Z Challenge again this year and my theme is going to be: I don’t know.

Well, I do know. It’s ” I don’t know””

Hee Hee

What? Why? Huh? How? Ok, let me put it another way. My topic this year is: I’m writing about things I didn’t know or still don’t.

1. Growing up in an emotionally chaotic family , I often felt vulnerable and powerless. Over time as a way to cope, I got it into my head that my suffering was a result of my low intelligence and so I set out to become SMART! I was going to learn and then know ALL THE THINGS! Even things I had no way of knowing. In my intelligence, I would also somehow become magic.

My thinking was this: The more knowledge I gathered, the more insulated I’d be from all the hurtful things. I would be so smart, I’d out think/sense/ know it all and sail through life. Nothing bad would happen to me anymore.

HA HA HA HA HA!

That idea was problematic for so many reasons and of course life set out to teach me otherwise. In my mid forties I found out just how wrong I was.

That was a Big Ouchy!

But lots of lovely things came out of that experience, the most valuable being this:

I don’t know shit! And that’s OK.

Actually, that’s pretty damn great! I loved this lesson – well the positive effects of this lesson, and I want MORE. I miss spending deliberate time in “I don’t know” land.

2. “I don’t know” gives me leave from my job as controller of the Universe. I wrote about that last year, HERE. I can relax into what’s happening NOW.

3. I try to practice and appreciate not knowing every day, but of course on my blog, I write about things I know because well…how would I write about the things I don’t?! Well, this way! I think it’ll be an interesting new way to stretch my brain out.

4. The repercussions of thinking one knows everything can be harsh and swift! It behooves me to take myself down a notch, every once in awhile. To explore the idea that I don’t know EVERYTHING. To keep myself humble. I don’t need any more of life’s smacks upside the head, thankyouverymuch!

There you have it! Please join me here in April, for my A-Zs of I don’t know!

Monday Ramble and COVID 19.

COVID 19. Isn’t this a thing? People are acting like it’s end of days. Oh my, the panic. And it’s the panic that’s causing the problems at the moment. The risk in Alberta is still low. The province is taking aggressive measures to flatten the curve which is pretty smart, knowing what we know about these things!

Are you sick yet? So far so good on this end. I had the Grands last week and they didn’t give me the ick. Check out this link, if you’re in ALberta, are feeling ill and need more information.

My only concerns at this moment are the huge amounts of misinformation out there and mass panic. Otherwise, it’s all good in my neighbourhood at the moment.

How are toilet paper stocks in your world? ( Pro tip, install a bum gun and you won’t need TP!)

Ours were still ok at the store last week at but a person can’t find hand sanitizer anywhere. That’s OK. I have soap. Which is what a person should be using first ANYWAY. The hand sanitizer is only good 3 times and then you still need to wash your hands. Still, it’d be nice to have right at the front door or when one is out and about.

Not that I go anywhere, ha! To the library and the grocery store most weeks. That’s Winter for ya! I am a fair weather human ๐Ÿ˜‰ My home range is small as it is anyway!

This is what the TP and bleach wipes sections looked like this week:

Fucking hoarders…I get that people are scared. These are scary times. This is a scary thing. But you only need enough stuff to last you TWO weeks. Not two years. People are getting into fights over toilet paper. There is even a separate line at Costco to deal with the crowds….I’m trying to be sympathetic to people because fear and panic are real things and they don’t feel good but come on.

Other things were starting to be cleaned out too. Things like rice, cans of beans, macaroni and cheese…I saw a dude with a cart full of milk! Yes, milk! His cart was overflowing with 4 litre jugs….ggrr. The guy in line behind him was giving him the gears about it -nicely- but still…I hope he felt embarrassed. Mums are even starting to worry about things like baby formula and medicine…not cool. Every single person at the check outs had some sort of cleaning product too, lol. I managed to grab a bottle of bleach. One, because I’m not an asshole and there was hardly anything left of THAT either.

Hubs says if things get REALLY bad the hoarders will be the first to go when people find them out anyhow, so there’s some small, spiteful comfort in that, ha!

How are you all doing? Has your health authority taken any preventative measures? How are you all feeling about this?

I find it all endlessly fascinating. We’re watching this thing unfold in real time and I feel like I’m in the middle of this huge social experiment.

There is still lots of good out there in the world too. Don’t forget about that. People are still singing in Italy.

Clean and sterile hugs and kisses to you. And remember:

Throwback Thursday- Young Me Edition.

I swear this is one of my first times participating in such a thing here.

It was really fun to look through my old photos and while I don’t have a lot, I have enough to play for a little bit! All photos circa 1970 something.

My Gran and me. I look to be about….2..ish. I also look like my Grandson here! That was a funny realization. It’s the round squishy face โค

I’m probably 3 here. Playing in the water on Gabriola Island. My grandparents property had a stream running through it and the otters used to play in it. Thankfully, no otters in my buckets today! Had I been a parent there, my kids would have totally been in that stream. Maybe not at three years old but most definitely later. I admire the supervision I was under here, ha ha!

Maybe 4 or 5. I appear to have short hair so this looks to be around the time I wanted to be a BOY and walk around with my shirt off because it was hot. I asked my mother for a haircut because I thought having short hair would mean I was a boy. I deeply regretted that for years to come! I had bad hair until my teens!

I used to beg my dad to make me these silly hats. He had a million handkerchiefs. That he actually used as handkerchiefs!

Ha! And did you know that until today I always thought the word was hankerchief ? Don’t I feel silly!!

Special thanks to Anne from Snowbird in Paradise for the inspiration and encouragement. This was fun!

Spring Tea Party

Spring arrives in 2020 on March 19.

If you’re thinking to yourself ” That seems early” You’d be right!

According to the Old Farmer’s Almanac this is a thing because of โ€ฆ math. And how our calendar is set up and leap years.

You can read the whole article here. It’s extremely interesting and the author explains things far better than I ever could. Sorry!

Last year, I had a one women tea party to celebrate the occasion ( and as an excuse eat scones with homemade clotted cream) and I’ll be doing the same thing this year too!

SPRING!

FOOD!

CELEBRATING ALL THE THINGS!

Here are some highlights from 2019!

Steamed green beans with wee tomatoes and pesto for dipping. Open faced Tuscan ham sandwiches with dijon ( and butter!) and cucumber sandwiches on top of a tea biscuit. Deviled eggs with capers. Missing are my scones with jam and clotted cream! The scones were Ok but the clotted cream โค

I used Chef John’s recipe from Food Wishes:

And it turned out really well!

It was insanely good on top of a scone with a good spot of jam. I even froze it and enjoyed it six months later on top of some Swedish pancakes! It was just as yummy then too. I’ll be making this again for 2020.

My next favourite thing were my family famous tea biscuits. This year I’m not going to be making scones because…meh. I prefer tea biscuits and these are pretty versatile. My recipe come from a battered old Purity Flour cookbook:

Well loved for good reasons. I especially enjoy cheese in mine:

There are a million other variations you could do to your own taste! I’ve got some fancy ones in my head for this year. Scones are just too sweet and dry for me. Biscuits are where its at!

And last : Deviled Eggs with Capers.

There’s nothing really to them, simply make a basic recipe and add Herbs de Provence , chop up some capers, add them to the mix saving a few whole ones as garnish.

I made it up as I surveyed the contents of fridge and I was so pleased they came out as tasty as they did.

Fancy and pretty to look at, yet different than the usual deviled egg you’d normally eat without tasting too weird. A lot of my “creations” don’t turn out nearly as well! ๐Ÿ™‚

All enjoyed of course with a big mug of hot tea. Here is a pretty set up to satisfy you purists:

Photo by Suzy Hazelwood on Pexels.com

My favourite is Earl Grey with extra Bergamot. How about you?

I’m working on finalizing my Spring menu this year and I’m sure once its all said and done you’ll see it here. How do you celebrate Spring?

Simple Pleasures – Bacon IN Eggs.

The Hubs fried up half a pound of bacon the other day and very kindly left me my share ๐Ÿ™‚

Now that’s love folks!

I was most tempted to eat the strips as a snack before breakfast, ha, but ended up making one of my favourite dishes.

It’s a simple, silly little thing but it has my heart because it’s tied to a memory of a special person and a special place.

My grandpa used to make this every time we visited the home he shared with my grandma on Gabriola Island.

Grandpa would chop up raw bacon, real tiny and add it to just started scrambled eggs. The bacon would release all its fat and cook along with the eggs. But barely. Just enough to be safe to eat ๐Ÿ™‚ By the time it was all done you had a beautiful mess of soft eggs with little dots of bacon all the way through. YUM!

My mother said he made it that way so as to stretch the bacon out to feed so many people but to me, it was a dish of culinary perfection!

The quick and dirty version is too โค