I is for *I don’t know. A-Z Challenge.

I don’t know my ass from a hole in the ground.

What does that even mean?

OK, from Wiktionary –Almost always used in negative constructions to describe someone’s ignorance or stupidity, such as: He doesn’t know his ass from a hole in the ground

Well then, yes! Its true. Oftentimes, I don’t know my ass from a hole in the ground.

But maybe not quite in the way that you think.

Ive come to really appreciate not knowing.  I spent an entire year with ” I don’t know” being my theme and it was SO nice. Instead of having to walk about pretending that I had all the answers, I could instead let it all go into the void.

Will my husband have another mental health episode?

I don’t know.

What will I do if he does?

I don’t know.

Is my son using drugs again?

I don’t know.

What will I do if he is?

I don’t know.

Am I going to stay in this marriage?

I don’t know.

Will my grandbaby be born alive?*

I don’t know.

Doesn’t that all sound awful?

Absolutely! But it was also mother trucking liberating to just give all those worries up.

To step into the vast unknown and just be. It gave me time to listen to myself.

To allow the answers to come, on their own. 

To allow for what truly was.

To accept what was instead of trying to control the uncontrollable.

It taught me what was mine and what was not.

And it still does that to this day.

I don’t know , is my most precious daily mantra. My most beloved tool in my mental/spiritual toolbox. The smartest thing I say to myself, and others, on any given day.

I really DON’T know my ass from a hole in the ground.

And that’s just fine.

*If you missed G, yes my grandbaby was born alive. He’s still alive, a year later ❀

21 thoughts on “I is for *I don’t know. A-Z Challenge.

  1. I guess it is okay not to know certain things. As life goes on, we do find out anyway.
    Hugs and best wishes to you πŸ™‚

    P.S.: What is with random sayings and phrases these days? Half the time, I feel completely lost.

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  2. Letting go of that tight grip of control or having to have all the answers is very liberating, you are right. For someone who doesn’t know, you know quite a bit πŸ™‚ I’m enjoying reading your posts.

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  3. β€œIt makes me wonder, Do we spend most of our days trying to remember or forget things? Do we spend most of our time running towards or away from our lives? I don’t know.”
    ― Markus Zusak, Fighting Ruben Wolfe

    Loved every bit of it! As they say – There is “heaven” in the oblivious! πŸ˜‰

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  4. Delightful! Personally, I love the phrase “i don’t know” because I believe we keep learning as long as we live. Also, I know lots of people who don’t know their ass from a hole in the ground – clueless, insensitive and yada yada yada. And sometimes, it is just wonderful not to bother knowing!

    Great to connect with you, Lael! I come from https://vidyasury.com

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    • That’s exactly it! We do keep learning for as long as we live. I have a tattoo to remind myself I’m a student in life. I really also love the idea of having a beginner’s mind. Cant have that if one thinks they know it all,lol

      Thanks for stopping by. I so appreciate your insights and comments ❀

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